VirtuaLife

Something's been tickling me over the last few days.

It's a well established observation (if not fact) that when Christians need God, their spiritual walk seems to swell in proportion to the urgency of their need. Look at (Christian) teenagers when they want to rebel, young adults when they suffer the indignities of exams and no money, and the older ones through their many crises and life decisions. And when everything gets cruisy again, God goes out of the window and the ego takes centrestage once more.

So I find it exceedingly strange that, for myself, I have found the holidays so far to be one of rejuvenation and refreshment. Instead of bargaining with God, I have instead made myself supplicant to His will. Instead of blotting him out of my schedule with more 'exciting' things, I have been overjoyed (no exaggeration) to create time in my schedule to ponder His word in greater depth.

I am left with two conclusions. Either: 1) Exams no longer constitute a crisis to me, or; 2) God is readying me for something big!

Of course, if you were unlucky enough to see me during exams, you would know that the former is a rather untenable conclusion. So, the latter it is!

I'm feeling something I haven't felt for a loooong time. It's a barely perceptible excitement but with steadily gaining momentum, like the calm before the storm with the backpressure building up. God has something new! And for once, I don't care what it is; I just want to experience Him so intimately again, as a friend but also as my Saviour. I want to feel that annoiting (I believe He has already showed me a part of it!) more strongly than I ever have! And to do that, God issued me a challenge tonight.

"Purify your heart, read my words, and Seek."

Yes God. I shall.